break.

It's been awhile since I wrote in this blog. I guess I needed a break after that emotionally charged last blog. I am glad things have settled a bit since then.

I am taking a break from CSUS next semester and going back to city college trying to get things sorted out. I have two passions, one for health and one for art. I am choosing to develop the passion for health and pursuing my public health degree (Specifically, community health) so we'll see how that goes.

My health stuff is still out of control. I went and got the report from the radiologist today. They found two small cysts on my left ovary. They don't think they are serious and will go away in time. But, more importantly they aren't to blame for any of the problems I've been having. Which I guess is mostly a good thing (But I would like something to blame)

And as I deal with all of this, it's hard to not be bitter. To not be angry at God. I want to be a normal twenty-something that lives their life. Not someone who feels sick all the time and is in pain. I felt like I went through so much dealing with my anxiety problems, and as that started to lessen I felt such a weight being lifted up off of me. But it was so short. Now I feel as though I have double the weight on my shoulders. I feel so bound.

Well... On a lighter note, summer school starts monday. I may regret doing this, but I signed up for inorganic chemistry. We'll see how it goes!