freedom.

there is something about freedom that is terrifying. i am not used to having the weight being lifted off my shoulders. what is this feeling? this feeling of waking up and not being panicked? knowing that i do not have to spend my life in a field i am not interested in? it's a release. it's freedom.

the world of design is terrifying. but it intrigues me. it's daunting, but in a way that makes me want to jump into it.

j. visited this weekend. we had fun, i laughed so hard that i cried at points. i miss that. even though we don't share secrets always, it's nice to have someone around that i can just be "me." i don't have to put on some mask or filter myself for the most part.

i am writing this entry in my bed, with gatsby laying on my back and huey snuggled up to my side. i love the way it feels to know that animals love you. i can't wait to be a mom someday.