so never mind of plan making, we'll start living.

i struggle a lot with my beliefs. there was a time where i wouldve identified as a christian. then i called myself a liberal christian. then i just avoided the subject all together. but i dont like that. i think it's a shame what most christians do to the idea of who jesus is and what he represented.

aaron weiss is an amazing man who is the frontman for mewithoutYou, this is an interview i came across that i feel like says a lot of what i feel:

- What do you think is the biggest issue that society is overlooking and how can we fix it?

A: Well our society, the biggest issue we overlook is lack of compassion and greed and wealth over our culture and those of others. And the way we think to resolve that is to sponsor a child or give a little money at church. They say to give 10% percent of your money but sometimes it feels like we’re letting…it’s like giving the dog the crumbs off the table. It’s not like we ever….

We’re not sacrificing something of ours to give to them. It’s like we just give a dollar to them and that’s it.

A: Yeah, exactly. It’s like we always are conscious of the fact that over 30,000 children are dying every day from starvation and preventable diseases. And we have new gismos and technologies and cellular phones and DVDs and all that stuff, none of which are necessary for our survival and we ignore our brothers to survive. I can’t reconcile that and live with a clear conscious. And I don’t know if other people can or if they just silent their conscious or there is something going on that I just don’t understand. It’s just something that is generally ignored. My luxuries and entertainment are more important to me than other people’s lives. What do we do about that? As Jesus said “Sell all your possessions and give to the poor”. We do without those unnecessary things until all the people in the world have the necessary things.

I think it's a shame that spirituality ever had to know religion.

I read stuff like this and it makes me never want to buy anything new and give everything i have to people who need it more. I have so much and feel like I am where I am not because of something amazing I did. What is the difference between where I am today and being born to a single poor mom in the projects who lost her place to live? There's nothing. We like to act like we are high and mighty and we did so much to earn what we have today. But we haven't. We've done so little.

I think it's Christmas that makes me think of this the most. When I see everyone walking around with huge shopping bags and buying present after present for each other. Meanwhile, thousands of children go to bed without dinner. And here I am, warm, in my apartment, with running water, electricity money in the bank, and honestly it's really really hard to sleep at night thinking about that.