toilet talk.

So as of Sunday, my bowels decided it was cool to randomly going into these episodes. On Sunday I was in the bathroom for an hour with (pain level 9) cramps. Today, I have gone to the bathroom probably 8-10 times in the last hour (pain level high at 6, low at 3)

I have an appointment with a new doctor on Monday. Although I got a good recommendation from a friend. It made me nervous that on my insurance website it said he did employee injuries too. Hopefully, he does not fall into the stereotype. At this point, everyone gets one shot with me. I am very scared it's something serious that will require surgery. Which seems like a horrible way to spend christmas break. :/

I stumbled on an endo board on LJ. It was simultaneously encouraging/discouraging. So many of these women are still suffering after diagnosis. But at the same time, at least they knew what they had and were dealing with.

I am scared. I am scared that I won't be able to find out what's really wrong because of my anxiety and it's ability to prevent me from running certain tests (ie: CT's) I hope that I find someone who's willing to work with me and all my weird quirks.

I'm noticing that since this bathroom business has flared up I've reverted to some of my agoraphobic ways. This sort of concerns me, but I am ignoring it for now.